How am I spending my time?

26 Aug

This question has been nagging at me for the past few weeks as I started to build a bio for my profile on The Nest. (See the unfinished product here). I can’t for the life of me find a legitimate, God-honoring reason to continue spending time creating this thing. It has taken hours–first I have to take the pictures, then I upload them, then I create the pages, insert the pictures, type in the captions. But I walk away from it all feeling like I just wasted hours of my life with nothing to show for it but a shrine to my life–and an enabler to my pride. I just know that when I get to heaven, there will be a record of all the hours I wasted on earth–and even though I won’t be remorseful there (because there is no sadness in heaven!) I want to put an end to the wasted time while I can.

I also find that I spend all of my time outside of work doing things for myself. I live in my own little world. I hate that!! I am praying for God to open the door to volunteer opportunities near my house so I can do something for other people rather than live in my own little bubble.

When I stumbled across a website today that asked this very same question and listed some analysis questions, I realized that I need to do a self-evaluation. These are the questions:

  • Where are you spending your time?
  • What would you really like to be doing?
  • Where would you really like to live?
  • How is your relationship with your loved ones?
  • Do you have time to help others in your town?
  • Do you have a hobby, a passion?
  • Do you spend time on your hobby or passion?
  • Do you focus on your health, your weight, your appearance?
  • I have also been going through this period of wondering what my life purpose is. I initially thought that it meant I should get a new job (though I haven’t even been at my current job for a year yet and it is seemingly the perfect job for me). But now I see that what I really need is an attitude/perspective adjustment. The Lord revealed to me last night that I was trying to live according to my own standards–my attitude was “I don’t want to go to a job every day that I’m not crazy about. I just don’t want to live that way.” Well, a crucial part of being a Christian is not living the way I want to live, but living the way God wants me to live.

    This verse has been convicting:

    Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

    I will post more on this topic when I have time to digest my answers to the questions above.

    One Response to “How am I spending my time?”

    1. MOSES September 11, 2008 at 11:22 am #

      keep the flame burning.You may not know, but you are far much ahead in all aspects of life,if you are as keen with your time as you’ve potrayed.God bless.

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