No such thing as perfect.

24 Aug

Never let ’em see you when you’re breaking
Never let ’em see you when you fall
That’s how we live and that’s how we try

Tell the world you’ve got it all together
Never let them see what’s underneath
Cover it up with a crooked smile
But it only lasts for a little while

[CHORUS:]
There’s no such thing as perfect people
There’s no such thing as a perfect life
So come as you are, broken and scarred
Lift up your heart and be amazed
And be changed by a perfect God

Suddenly it’s like a weight is lifted
When you hear the words that you are loved
He knows where you are and where you’ve been
And you never have to go there again

[CHORUS]

Who lived and died to give new life
To heal our imperfections
So look up and see out
Let grace be enough

 

I have never considered myself a people pleaser. I mean, in some regards I am because I want people to like me but I like to think I don’t compromise my values to please them. And I’m getting better at being able to tell people no instead of always backing myself into sticky situations.  

But lately, I’ve been struggling with this idea that I have to have my life all together. I think it comes from perpetual laziness and the whole triathlon thing that took over my life (doesn’t that sound like an oxymoron?!?!? but you see, the triathlon caused the subsequent laziness…it took all of my energy.) I get overwhelmed easily and feel stressed out if I run out of time before getting done everything on my TO-DO list. I feel guilty if I watch TV instead of doing laundry. I feel guilty taking a nap when the kitchen is a mess. It’s all about “should”s and “have-to”s.

As a believer, I know that I don’t earn my salvation. I know that I can never deserve eternal life and that God doesn’t ask me to prove my worth–because He knows that I never could. I am not worth anything except what Christ paid for me…which means that I am worth A LOT, but only because of Christ.

I heard this song by Natalie Grant on the radio today. I had heard it before and liked…contrasting the non-existent of perfect people with a perfect God. But today, the line “There’s no such thing as a perfect life” stood out to me.

That’s what I have been striving for. What I’ve been wanting. What I’ve been thinking/hoping/believing was possible.

It’s not.

My life will never be perfect. I will never feel like I’m on top of the world and am doing good at this whole Christian thing–at least, I shouldn’t feel that way and I definitely shouldn’t make it my aim to stay there.

Instead of letting my failures and insufficiency cripple me, I should let them humble me and lead me to the cross. Lead me to the One who is sufficient, so I don’t have to be. Lead me to the One who is perfect in my place. Lead me to the place where I can lay my burdens down and remember that “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” Feeling like a failure doesn’t have to be a bad thing!! In fact, it can be one of the greatest blessings…because it reminds me that I am nothing without Christ.

Like Paul writes in 2 Corinthians 12:8-10, “Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

I can be content with a messy house, piles of laundry and dirty dishes, a long and old TO-DO list, nails that need repainting, eyebrows that need plucking, plants that need watering, cars that need cleaning, books that haven’t been read, lessons that haven’t been learned, and pounds that haven’t been lost. I can be content with everything that makes my life a mess. I can be content with “my” schedule being “derailed” and God’s schedule being followed. I can be content with not being able to see how God is using me, knowing that surely He is doing whatever He pleases with my chaotic, unpredictable, so-not-a-routine kind of life.

I feel like I am just scratching the surface at what Jesus meant when he said, “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30).

Lord, take me deeper into the glory of Calvary!

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