Being Me.

18 Nov

Over the past week, I’ve had some frequent thoughts pop into my head:

“I’m not a fast enough runner.”

“My blog isn’t as cool as that person’s.”

“My sense of style is boring.”

“I’m not doing enough with my life.”

“I’m completely awkward in situations like this.”

“Nobody likes me.”

These thoughts aren’t new.

But the way I’m responding to them is.

Instead of agreeing with those thoughts and wishing I was a different way as a result, I’ve countered them.

“God created me specifically to be me.

I am the only person who can be me.

And I am holy and loved by God.”

Instead of worrying about how other people perceive me, or how much they like me, or how the world measures what I’m worth, I’m living in the daily truth that God has validated me. I am already loved. I am already approved. He loves and delights in me. And now in Christ, I am free to be the person God created me to be.

I am free to be a slow runner with an excellent attitude.

I am free to be awkward and bad at small talk in social situations.

I am free to be introspective and analytic, instead of a happy-go-lucky, always cheerful person.

I want to go through this life, not enduring or accepting the person God created me to be, but embracing it. Loving it. Appreciating it. Marveling at it. Delighting in it. Refining it. Purifying it.

I am finally beginning to believe the truth of Psalm 139:

For you formed my inward parts;

you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

Wonderful are your works;

my soul knows it very well.

My frame was not hidden from you,

when I was being made in secret,

intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed substance;

in your book were written, every one of them,

the days that were formed for me,

when as yet there was none of them.

I may not be everything I would have chosen, had I been given the choice. But I wasn’t given the choice. God decided who I would be, according to His good and perfect will. And His works are wonderful.

“This God – his way is perfect.” Psalm 18:30

In Christ, I am exactly who God wants me to be. I am chosen and beloved. I praise Him that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. And I want to live in thankfulness of His gift of life.

How are you thanking God for who you are today?

4 Responses to “Being Me.”

  1. B. in the Know November 18, 2011 at 1:14 pm #

    Thanks for your honesty and the helpful reminder that we are who the Lord wants us to be. I have been feeling similar thoughts as of late – like I am missing something and what am I doing with my life. Hard to deal with, but have to keep fighting to trust and rest in the truth the Jesus knows what the heck he is doing with me.
    Much love,
    B

  2. Lisa November 18, 2011 at 1:22 pm #

    Wonderful post. I think sometimes I get caught up in trying to “improve” myself, and even thinking God wants me to be always striving to be better. And while improvement isn’t a bad thing, it is SO important to remember that God made us and loves us as we are. Your analysis here is spot on, and I know I will spend some time reflecting on this.

  3. Jen November 18, 2011 at 1:25 pm #

    Thanks for sharing Kathy! Definitely needed to hear these truths today; so good!

  4. C D Schumacher November 19, 2011 at 8:52 pm #

    Hey, Kathy! It was fun to hear from you over on my blog. 🙂 I hope you are doing well. It was fun to see a bit of what you are up to and reading here on your blog. I just heard about the book Love to Eat, Hate to Eat, and I’m looking forward to checking it out, especially after reading your post. Have a great holiday season!

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