To Wean or Not to Wean

28 Jan

I honestly thought that I’d have no problem weaning Emma once she got close to a year old. I mean, think of the freedom! No longer would I have to be the one getting up at 5:30 am to feed Emma. Or staying up until she goes to bed. Or missing out on time with friends because I have to go nurse her in a different room (the nursing cover was given up on a LONG time ago). Or interrupting my work day to go pump in a room with as many as 6 other women (yes.).

I could start wearing regular bras again.

I wouldn’t have to tailor my wardrobe to what’s easiest to nurse in.

Oh and did I mention not having to pump anymore?

I’ve been thinking fairly seriously about weaning because I don’t really produce that much milk anymore. I pump twice a day at work and get 2-3 ounces each time. I’m guessing that Emma gets maybe 3-4 ounces when she nurses. I hate the thought of nursing and giving a bottle for each feeding, so I’ve just been nursing her on a 3-hour schedule still, plus 3 meals of solid foods a day. Before bedtime, I give Emma a 4-5 ounce bottle of formula, and then nurse her.

Emma seems content and is growing well, so I guess what we’re doing works. But then I think it would be so much easier and simpler to just be done with nursing. My goal was only to make it to a year anyway, because then Emma can have cow’s milk and not need expensive formula.

Faced with the actual reality of not nursing anymore, though, I realized that I’m not ready to give it up. I can’t put my finger on why but I just can’t get myself to pull the trigger. Part of it is that bottles are a lot more work – to make, clean, store, warm. Nursing is convenient. Emma has also stopped pulling off as much to look around and inspect things, so it’s less frustrating.

But I think most of it is that nursing is my bonding time with Emma. She’s never been a cuddler – these days, she barely wants to be held at all. She’s on the move! So nursing is a special thing.

Side note: The other night, Emma woke up and had a bad cough. She didn’t want to lay in my arms like usual, so I held her upright against me and she leaned her head on my chest – she hasn’t done that since she learned to hold her head up! It was 2 a.m. but I was in HEAVEN.

A day will come, though, when Emma no longer needs – or wants – to nurse. Then it will be on to the next stage in our relationship.

But that day is not today.

 

6 Responses to “To Wean or Not to Wean”

  1. Cari January 28, 2014 at 3:50 pm #

    You are so lucky to be able to have a choice of when to wean her! I so wanted to nurse Drew until he was a year old at least, but that decision was made for me by the need to treat the virulent staph infection I contracted from the emergency c-section with harmful (to him) antibiotics that I had to take for nearly 2 months. I was heartbroken over it. I held out a long as I could, but by the time he was 4 months old the doctor insisted I treat the infection. So I say good for you! Nothing wrong with wanting to hold onto that a little longer!

  2. Lisa January 28, 2014 at 4:25 pm #

    I’m certain you’ll decide when the time is right. Besides, you still have a few months before she’s 1.

    I didn’t realize 1 year was the right age when switching to cow’s milk was ok. All the things I do not know about babies!

  3. youmeandteddy January 28, 2014 at 4:49 pm #

    With my little girl we just went down to two feeds a day at one (morning and evening) although if I wasn’t about we gave her a glass of milk. At about 14 months she substituted the morning one with milk at breakfast and then after I missed a couple of evening ones at 16 months she never asked again. I still had milk for about 3 months afterwards… You follow your own schedule basically. Your body knows what to do by now and so does Emma. X

  4. Theresa January 28, 2014 at 6:18 pm #

    I keep saying I won’t have issues weaning but when it comes down to it I’ll probably feel the same way. I HATE pumping though

  5. Brittney January 29, 2014 at 9:08 am #

    Feeling the same way!

  6. monthsbeforeyou February 4, 2014 at 2:54 pm #

    absolutely go with what you feel is best for you and Emma! But I am here to tell you that there is still joy on the other side as I’m going into my 2nd week of not nursing anymore. I still get my cuddles while he takes a bottle, and even though it’s different, it’s still good. I had a hard time with it as well!

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